A wonderful woman entered my life a few months ago and so far we have managed to stay out of the 'falling in love trap', but now I have come to the point that I would like to intensify our connection, but somehow there is a strong hesitation to apply a term like 'love'. It feels like there is something not completely right with the use of that word, as if using the words 'I love you' and 'we are in love' would activate not only the bright and happy elements of the concept, but also possible negative elements, perhaps even some curses.
This page wants to set the stage for the further exploration of this concept of love with cursed elements within it and how to possibly unravel it and create an alternative.
THE LOVE MEME
In Thought Form Rating Scale I introduce the term 'meme' for the first time. On that page I write:
Memes are described as units of cultural information transferrable from one mind to another (see Wikipedia) and what is interesting for our exloration of the ascension phenomemon is that these 'memes' are considered to be like 'viruses' that occupy the mind and actually drain it of most of its energy. These memes would do all that they can to stay in their position within the reality perspective of a certain person and they would love to be 'copied' to other people, for it would provide the chance to spread and therefore increase the likelihood of 'survival'.I have found it useful to consider certain 'memes' or thoughtforms as a kind of entities that want to continue their own existence. On the abovementioned page I present a few examples. Perhaps there is something like a 'love meme' that wants to continue its own existence as well. It is therefore crucial for that meme to continue to make people accept the reality of 'love', 'falling in love', 'being in love' etc.
CURSES AND SEXUAL ENERGY
In January 2005 I copied a part of a SSOA-text on a page called 'Curses'. A lot has been written about curses and how the Anu, Pharaohs, Sorcerers and many others would have used curses in order to increase their own powers, or to dump their own karma.
What I would like to explore is the possibility that perhaps the 'meme' love has been cursed in the past as well. That as soon as you tune into 'love' and you start thinking in terms of 'loving someone else' you immediately activate these curses as well. They might be cleverly hidden within the meme, but somehow I tend to believe that you not only feed the existence of the love-meme but you also invest energy in those that have placed those possible curses in the first place.
Perhaps this is all a bit far-fetched, but I think it is worthwhile to explore this possibility further. What if we play around with this concept a bit more? Could it be that there are unconscious agreements attached to this use of 'love'? What if the sexual energies that are released during sexual interaction are directed to some place or receiver that you wouldn't want to send your energy to if you'd know it consciously?
DEVELOPING A NEW WAY OF CONNECTING
I would like to invest in finding ways to end the power of the love-meme in this fashion. I would like to see if it were possible to remove any curse or hidden agreement attached to the word and act of 'love'. Since the word is so strong I think it is fairly impossible to alter the word 'love' and its connotations, at least at this stage.
I would therefore prefer to create a new terminology that is not partly cursed, nor would it have any hidden agreements to give sexual energy away. This new terminology that carefully avoids the 'love-meme' and its characteristics would need to encompass ways to connect with someone else in a harmless way, not giving any sexual energy away to unknown receivers. It would need to provide a way to share energy with each other, to reach a higher level of connectedness without the need to form dependent attachments. Perhaps a way could be developed in which there only is an intense connection when both 'participants' desire it to be that way for as long as they consciously want it to last.
This way of connecting to other people would require awareness to notice unwanted attachments, energy leaks, unwanted ancient agreements and it would require creativity to find ways to harmlessly connect to each other and retain the energy to explore new territories together. To heal the wounds of the past and to regain ancient awareness without repeating the same mistakes again.
Now that's something I would like to invest in! If anyone has any ideas or experiences with this mode of connecting harmlessly with someone else, please share them with me.
Gibbon
July 2008