Slowly I am trying to build a site which features more elements of my personal ascension journey than just features of the SSoA-site. Although we will probably remain closely linked during the journey, I will try to add my perspective a bit more. This has already resulted in the exploring-ascension section and this turtle section. From now on I will gradually reduce the number of links to the SSoA pages and focus more on these exploring and turtle sections.
I hope to develop a more independent terminology and point of view not necessarily identical with the SSoA perspective. My dream would be to develop some kind of partnership with the SSoA instead of merely a kind of teacher-student relationship. In order to grow into such a partnership there is a lot of karma to be cleared, a lot of lineages to be cleaned and much understanding to be born, but this is the journey I have set my mind on. You can read more about my changing view on the relationship with the SSoA in SSoA-dependency? and To Ascend Alone: a good idea or not?.
Well, now on to the topic of this page: karma and symbolism. In the ninth turtle called 'Too Much Unconsciousness' I wonder what ever happened to all the karma I must have released during my process until now. I couldn't remember much really. I guessed that I must have released the karma during dreamtime with my light body awareness and not much has dripped down to my waking consciousness.
During the last month I have come to realize that perhaps my view on what is karma and what is not, is not exactly accurate. Instrumental in this change was a mail by Simpo who runs his own web site. Especially the pages on Karma and Karma Clearing were enlightening.
I realized that I thought of karma as something big that could only be truly understood and released if you were able to see the original cause of the karma. I thought that in order to release karma from - let's say - 20,000 years ago, you would need to get into contact with the people, your ancestors who actually accrued the karma. You would need to see exactly how it happened and how it felt and what were the results and how it influenced the lives of their offspring through the ages. This releasing would need to cathartic in my opinion: crying for hours to truly release it and perhaps a number of times to clear it thoroughly.
Well, if you define karma and karma release like that it is no surprise that I had the feeling that I didn't release much karma during my process. However, perhaps karmic release isn't always that big and perhaps it can even be quite subtle.
From now on I am going to use a different definition for karma and karma-release. I am going to see karma as a kind of sticky thoughtform with a bad odor. A smelly thoughtform that contains some harmful content or some distracting, debilitating way of looking at the world. Karma release would then mean the understanding of the sticky thoughtforms and the gradual removal of the thought forms out of your system. By removing them out of your system on all levels (including the subconscious and unconscious levels) you would be releasing karma.
Now, if I look at karma release from that perspective, I did indeed release quite a load of karma during the last years. In the sense that I have been busy with removing certain thought forms, getting the load off certain thought forms and I have grown more forgiven towards the thought forms of others. Everybody dances their own dance has become a motto for me which enables me to be among other minded people without the need to think better or worse of others. Without the need to enter some kind of verbal arena all of the time.
So now the focus changes from the search for ancestral karma with ancestral data to a search for thought forms in present day that might be hampering. So anything that triggers certain thoughtforms and emotions can be some karmic thoughtform. Apparently I do not need to relive some karmic event in the ages of the Anu-family but I might release karmic mud from those times by 'simply' transforming the related thought form which could easily be triggered by something written in a book on computer science or by talking to a woman who is in the sex industry. Karma might not be something cultural or historic. The karmic thoughtforms of the Romans and the Greek in their temples could be released in modern times by playing your nintendo gamecube in a non-competitive way.
October 2006: On Loving Thoughts
January 2007: Fear of Losing a Job (Turtle 38)
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